i wish i were a reader.

i try sometimes... but i just end up giving up or falling asleep. I always start out with good intentions but before i know it reading turns into this: looking into the light above me then back back down at the book, then over at the wall, back to the book, one word down, what does that word mean, back at the wall, is that a spider, no just a speck, did i already read that part, what page am i on, hmm this smells good, oh look i creased the corner i must have read this page before, i should really clean this room, where was I, shit.

maybe its not meant to be...